And so it begins.......

Why why why did I let it go this far?Because I was in denial. Was the food really worth it?Not really. Is that really me in those pictures? Yep. Do I really weigh 188. 7lbs.?Unfortunately, yes.

I'm so disgusted with my pictures(in the progress pics tab above). I can't believe I look like that. I can't believe I let my self go like that. I had a baby four months ago. I can't use "baby weight" as an excuse anymore. I'm sick of passing over my cute clothes for only the stuff that fits and hides the bulge. I have had enough of been tuckered out from simply going up a flight of stairs or taking my kids for a walk around the neighborhood. I can't even put in to words how pissed I am right now. But I have no one to blame except me. I know I have it in me to lose the weight. I've done so before. I just need to get a grip on what I eat and I'll be golden. I'm breastfeeding so I need to eat better for my baby as well.

I can do this. I need to do this. I have five children and a husband who all need me.