Being true to myself

I want to first off say thank you to those of you who have been supporting me these last few weeks during this rough patch. I couldn't have made it this far without people like you.

(I might be doing a bit of rambling on, so bare with me.)

I've been doing a lot of contemplating, torturing myself, and just being down right angry these last few weeks. I haven't been in a good place unfortunately. I have had a few unfortunate hardships that made me just take a step back from my journey and what I'm trying to accomplish here. It has left me with being exhausted and frustrated. In regards to this weight loss journey that I have embarked on, I decided to not weigh in again until the 1/1/10. I am focusing way too much on the numbers and not the overall health benefits that come from losing weight. I feel that I'm not in the right frame of mind to get on the scale right now. I'm honestly okay with that. My only goal is to be in a "normal" weight range by 2/2/10. I started to faithfully keep track of my weight loss efforts on that date last year. I think this is reasonable and achievable. I have to keep reminding myself that this process doesn't happen overnight. There is no time limit that I have to keep. I need to do this one day at a time, one pound at a time. I've been through so much in my 30 years on this earth, that this weight loss thing can't defeat me. I won't let it. I'm better than that.

Well, I'm off to go exercise( I usually workout at night)now since the undefeated New Orleans Saints have a game tonight!!!13-0, hoping to continue the winning streak by destroying the poor Dallas Cowboys who are know for a string of bad luck during the month of December:P

Look for me to keep updating my emotional progress on my journey and the big weigh-in on the 1st of the year.

Dee~

Its My Year

Its the first day of 2009 and boy am I ready to get the show on the road. I weighed in at 176.4 this morning. My goal is to get down to 130 by my 30th birthday which is May 29th. I think my goal is pretty darn achievable. But with 4 small children under the age of 7, as well as a household to maintain and a hubby, things can easily fall off track as some of you can attest. I plan to start exercising on Monday. I'm a planner so I have to write out my exercise routine so that I won't get bored with and throw in the towel before I actually get going with any sort of progress.

It kind of bites me in the butt being a great cook. I was born and raised in New Orleans which is known for its rich food and love of fattening ingredients so cooking low-fat is something that I am not use to one bit. Thats going to be a huge challenge for me.

If I can give birth to four children, I'm pretty sure I'll figure out this weight loss thing again:)