Saturday, December 19, 2009

Being true to myself

I want to first off say thank you to those of you who have been supporting me these last few weeks during this rough patch. I couldn't have made it this far without people like you.

(I might be doing a bit of rambling on, so bare with me.)

I've been doing a lot of contemplating, torturing myself, and just being down right angry these last few weeks. I haven't been in a good place unfortunately. I have had a few unfortunate hardships that made me just take a step back from my journey and what I'm trying to accomplish here. It has left me with being exhausted and frustrated. In regards to this weight loss journey that I have embarked on, I decided to not weigh in again until the 1/1/10. I am focusing way too much on the numbers and not the overall health benefits that come from losing weight. I feel that I'm not in the right frame of mind to get on the scale right now. I'm honestly okay with that. My only goal is to be in a "normal" weight range by 2/2/10. I started to faithfully keep track of my weight loss efforts on that date last year. I think this is reasonable and achievable. I have to keep reminding myself that this process doesn't happen overnight. There is no time limit that I have to keep. I need to do this one day at a time, one pound at a time. I've been through so much in my 30 years on this earth, that this weight loss thing can't defeat me. I won't let it. I'm better than that.

Well, I'm off to go exercise( I usually workout at night)now since the undefeated New Orleans Saints have a game tonight!!!13-0, hoping to continue the winning streak by destroying the poor Dallas Cowboys who are know for a string of bad luck during the month of December:P

Look for me to keep updating my emotional progress on my journey and the big weigh-in on the 1st of the year.


Friday, December 11, 2009


This week has been absolutely horrible. It started when the snow came, the van had a flat, and a few days later, we had to replace the car battery. Along with those little obstacles, I thought that I was going to be receiving some life changing news. Well the good news turned out to be not so good news, I ate and ate and ate and then cried cried cried. Why did I let my emotions take over? I haven't exercised since Monday. I'm so disappointed in myself. I totally lost control. I just blew it. I don't know why I'm getting so close to my goal and then taking a billion steps back. What the hell is wrong with me??Why can't I get a grip all of a sudden??How can I call myself a role model to my children??I'm just plain angry. Its also that time of the month. Just great. Just what I need. Bloating, mood swings, and fatigue. None of which are helpful at this point. I just feel so out of whack. I honestly don't know how to pick up the pieces. I can't believe one little thing has done so much damage:/


Monday, December 7, 2009

Goals for the week

I need to start doing this so I won't fall off as much as I have in the last few weeks. So here goes:

1.Exercise 2x per day
2. Drink at least 120 oz. of water per day
3. Go to bed before 11pm
4. Eat within my calorie range of 1400 calories
5. Use food journal daily
6. Do ab exercises during every workout

I feel that most of these goals are doable. I can't wait to see if I accomplish them all by the end of the week. Wish me luck!!


Saturday, December 5, 2009

Not beating myself up....moving on

Well if you couldn't tell by the title, I gained weight. I weighed in at 146.4, which is 1.1lbs. up from last Saturday. I'm okay with it. I know what I did wrong, so now I should concentrate on rectifying that instead of digging a deep hole for myself. I just don't think it will serve me any purpose to be angry about a number all weekend. I'm to a point where I actually don't mind looking at myself in the mirror. I'm more confident then ever. I'm GOING to step it up a notch this week. My gift to myself this Christmas is to be at a "normal" weight. I want nothing else except that. I don't think I'm going to take the weekend off from exercise. I'm so close to my goal. I just can't give up now. I don't want to be feeling like crap at the beginning of 2010. I don't want to "start over" again. Its just not acceptable. I'm better than that.

I'm going to head out and do some shopping. I'm going to look into buying a sit up bench as well. I hope you all have a great weekend. Much success at your next weigh-in;)


Friday, December 4, 2009

So stressed!!

I love my children dearly but I think they seriously were trying to have me declared insane. If it wasn't my 3 year old daughter Ayannia peeing on the floor, it was my baby girl Saiya clinging to me like velcro. I'm so freakin' tired. Now I have to clean up the lunch mess, workout, put another load in the wash, then get everyone ready to go to my 7 yr. old son Malique's school tonight to make a Gingerbread house. My four year old Kaine is overly chatty these days. When his sister doesn't want to play, he tries to force her to play. WTF??The weather isn't helping much either. My baby girl was diagnosed with pneumonia on Tuesday(she has not been herself one bit:/)so not much outside activity is going to happen since its in the low 20s today. I need a freakin' break. I really hope this stress doesn't affect my weigh-in tomorrrow. UGH!!!!I love my children!! I love my children!! I love my children!!


Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Sweet 16:)

I added 9 more pounds to my ticker, which would bring me down to 129.2. I'm only 5'2, so I want to make sure that I look healthy. Some of the recommendations I've came across on the internet, say I should be at 115. I think that's a bit much. My 7 year old is 60 lbs. lol. I'm not sure why, but when I initially changed my ticker, I frowned. It feels like I just dragged myself back a few paces. I know that's not really what I'm doing. I'm not sure if those 9lbs. will make a difference or not, but I would sure like to find out. The ultimate goal is to live a healthier lifestyle;).

Monday, November 30, 2009

Exercise Log?

I've been searching for a few days now for an online exercise tracker that can be used on my blog but I've found NOTHING! I can't believe that isn't available. I don't want to continue to using my text log because eventually it will be a mile long. I would like something that revolves and looks simple. I'm sick of looking for one!!IF you have one, PLEASE let me know. Thanks!


Saturday, November 28, 2009


Weigh-in: 145.3
Weight loss: 2.9!!
Only 9.3 lbs to go:)

I just knew that after last week's weak moment, that I had totally ruined any chance of losing weight. I just wasn't giving a crap for a few days. I beat myself up really hard about it too. Well, as it turns out, exercise really does work!!! I can't believe I lost so much. I was expecting a gain or breaking even. I must have squealed for about five minutes after I weighed in lol. My husband was shocked too;)I actually LOST weight during Thanksgiving week. I didn't think that was even possible. I owe it all to my food scale. If something ever happened to it, I think I would go insane. Its definitely the key to my weight loss success. I don't think I would have gotten this far without it. I really gave it my all with my workouts though(If you look on the left and scroll down a little, you'll see what I did this week). I really hate to cut this short, but I must tend to my family and get some breakfast going. I hope you all enjoy the rest of this long weekend:)


Thursday, November 26, 2009

I'm truly blessed:)

Today, we all gave thanks for various reasons. I have so much to be grateful for.

An amazing husband and father that loves me unconditionally. He's my best friend and I adore him.

I have four beautiful healthy children that I wouldn't be able to go a day without hugging or kissing. They are my world.

I have a roof over my head and food in the pantry. We all tend to take those things for granted. People in different parts of the world can't say the same......

I have parents who have been married for 30 years and taught me the true meaning of marriage.

I have two siblings who I talk to daily. We've always been close:)

In regards to eating today, I did great!!! Having a food scale really did the trick. I ate 1529 in total today. I feel so happy about that. I prepared everything the healthy way and I even had dessert TWICE. I feel amazing and just plain happy right now. I even exercised earlier. I would never have thought that I would be working out on a holiday!!

Well I'm going to go and enjoy the remainder of the night with my hubby since the kids are asleep. I hope that everyone had a great day surrounded by family, friends, and love:)


Tuesday, November 24, 2009


That's one word to describe what I'm doing to myself and this weight loss journey. For the last two days, I just haven't committed myself to my goals at all. Why with 12 lbs. left, I've decided to do this? Why am I not taking responsibility for my actions? Why haven't I worked out in two days? Why am I doing this???Ughhhhhhh:/ Its like I'm purposely throwing in the towel. What am I afraid of? Is it being "normal"? Is it not being able to hide under my XL winter coat that is too big for me now? I have so many questions about myself but I don't know where to find the answers that I'm looking for. I'm not certain if its the weather that's just throwing me off course(been raining and been stuck home with a sick child), but this isn't a good place to be in mentally. This just freakin' bites! I need to get a grip before this gets out of control........


Saturday, November 21, 2009

As expected......

Weight: 148.2
1.8 lbs. gained

I have no one to blame and no excuses. I fell off the wagon this week. I nibbled way too much. It is what it is. I'm not going to do wallow in self-pity all week because that won't do me any good. On the plus side, I'm not back in the 150s and I lost an inch on my waist, so those are my NSV(non-scale victories). My goal for next week is to be at 145. I really need to get a grip with my calories and continue to journal. I also want to exercise seven days this week. We'll see what actually ends up happening at my next weigh-in. If I don't challenge myself, I'll never get rid of these last 12 lbs. Well I don't have too much to write at the moment. If that changes, I'll be back;) Enjoy your weekend!!


Friday, November 20, 2009

Perfect timing

After complaining about not having any support from my mommy friends with being accountable for our weight, I literally found a challenge hours after I blogged. It definitely must be faith. I NEED this to get these last 10lbs. gone for good. I'm in a Christmas Challenge thanks to 266:) I really have to focus. I've got a feeling that the scale won't be kind to me at tomorrow's weigh-in. I've been on a "nibble" fest all week. I've been nibbling when I make every meal. And knowing that I'm doing so, sadly I continued for the majority of the week. This just freakin' blows. I have been keeping up with exercising though, so I could be in for a surprise. Who am I kidding?? I'm just gonna expect a gain and move on. I'm not perfect. I know what I did wrong. This challenge will get me back on track!! Until tomorrow........


Tuesday, November 17, 2009


I was just thinking about my weigh-in day. I've been weighing in on Wednesdays lately because some of my mommy friends figured they needed the motivation and accountability. Well after a month, they've dropped off like flies. I feel like I shouldn't even bother with tomorrow's weigh-in. (Last week I was the only one who bothered to even post my weight). I think I'm going to go back to a Saturday weigh-in instead. I was hoping everyone would stick it out but it didn't happen:( I've been searching for some sort of weight loss challenge but haven't came up with anything as of yet, so if you know of anything out in blog land, please leave me a comment! "See" you all on Saturday for my next round with the scale.


Wednesday, November 11, 2009

A girl could get use to this!

Weight: 146.4
Pounds lost: 0.9

I haven't had the chance to really blog the last few weeks as I would have liked since life is super busy right now. Parent teacher conferences, getting some Christmas shopping done, everyday errands, and spending time with the kids is a LOT of work. But I think keeping busy also helps me on this journey. I don't have time to say "I can't do this" or "I don't feel like eating that". I'm a planner by default (its in the genes) and I beat myself up if I don't follow through with something. That's goes for every aspect of my life. I'm at the 10 lbs to go mark and I must admit I'm a tad bit afraid that its going to become even more difficult to lose weight the last few weeks. I have read that the last 10 lbs are the hardest to lose. I'm probably going to lose an additional 10 lbs. but I'll access that when I reach my goal. That amount of weight loss can make a huge difference, so we'll see. Passing by mirrors, I almost don't recognize myself if that makes any sense. I'm starting to actually "see" the hard work and dedication. This is an amazing feeling that I don't ever want to go away. In the back of my mind, I will always wonder why did I wait this long to get it together?

On another note, today as you know is Veteran's day. I don't have anyone close in my family that served our nation but I would like to say thank you to those who have and are doing so right now. God bless you!

Happy Hump Day everyone, I hope you enjoy the rest of the week;)


Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Weigh-in and Randomness

Hey guys, I'm back!!Took a little time away from blogging to focus on a few other things.  I'm now the Organizer of my local mommy group so that took some adjusting.  I thought it was going to be somewhat easy but instead its way more time consuming than it appeared to be.  As you know Halloween is fast approaching, so I've also been on the costume hunt for four children.  Talk about exhausting!!

I'm down to 147.5 this week (with hair rollers lol).  I'm very happy that I didn't give up as I desperately considered doing so a few weeks back. I was just pissed over a number even though my clothes were fitting me well and I was receiving compliments on my progress so far.  Its amazing how much numbers on a scale can affect your outlook on life.

 I've been search for a cardio-kickboxing class as my Kettlebell class ends this Sunday, but I haven't had any success in finding one:(Our community center has a ab cycling class at 5:45am on Mondays and Fridays.  I'm really eager to try this out but I'm so NOT a morning person.  I would have to wake up at 5am to be there on time.  Are you kidding me?? As a mom of four, sleep is a very precious thing to me.  I'm not sure what else is available but that time slot is just ridiculous.  I'm looking to try something new to keep me going but I have no clue how to obtain it.  Oh well, I'm sure something will peek my interest soon enough.

 I had Banana Nut Crunch for breakfast today.  I ♥ that cereal!!!! Today is my rest day so I'm going to take a nap later and curl up with a good book tonight after the kids are in bed.  Have an awesome hump day and enjoy the rest of the week!!!


Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Weigh-In and Apology

I want to first start off with the apology. I'm so sorry for my ridiculous negativity on my last blog post. I've reread it a 100 times and I can't believe I actually wrote that. I mean I was just full of anger and hate for myself. I did not like the path I was headed down. Most of you(I assume) are following my blog for support and motivation and I obviously wasn't fit to give you those tools. For that I am truly sorry. I was headed to a really dark place that I didn't like the view of at all. I've worked too hard to just throw it all away I sincerely thank all of you for giving me the courage to keep trying and not give up.

Well after months of scale torture, its finally happened. I stepped on the scale of doom and it said 148.4;2.2 lbs down:;30 lbs gone since starting this blog(Lost 27lbs after the birth of my fourth child)So since October 3, 2008, I've lost 58 lbs!!!!!I broke the curse!! I focused like never before and succeeded. My mini-goal was to get to 149 and I'm there!!!If my children were awake, I think I would screamed but instead I just jumped and celebrated in silence:D Well today starts the kid's fall break, so I'm off to make breakfast and see what the day has in store.  Happy hump day and enjoy the rest of the week!!!


Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Defeated and Done

Well I decided to take a step back from the scale. So for 14 days, I diligently exercised and kept a food diary. You want to know what the scale said this morning?? 150.6. That's right, its not a typo. 150.6. I'm still in the 150s. I've been in this number group since June. I must tell you that I'm to the breaking point. I'm literally busting my ass and this is what I get. Before stepping on the scale today, I had nothing but positive thoughts. My clothes are fitting better, I'm seeing more tone and definition in some areas, yet the scale knocked my clean off my high-horse. I feel stupid for admitting this but as I blog, I'm in tears. I only lost .2 pounds in TWO damn weeks. I could have sat my ass on the couch and did that. I'm to the point where I just want to raid the fridge and eat every bad thing I can get my hands on:(What is the point of being so dedicated to this journey but not seeing the results of my hard work? Why do I take my free time to exercise when I'm basically getting slapped in the face repeatedly?Unless you're on a similar journey, you will never understand my heartache. My husband didn't really know what to say to me this morning. He looked just as pathetic as I did. People tell me often that I motivate them, I'm doing a good job and one person even asked me to help them lose weight. How in the hell am I suppose to be a good motivator when I can't even get the ball moving again on my end?? I'm at the fork in the road and the options are this: on the left I see the healthy path of eating right and exercising; on the right I see the path of going back to that unhappy place and eating whatever the hell I want. I'm telling you right now that the right side is looking mighty good to me right now. Metaphorically speaking, this honestly feels like going to work overtime for months only to find out your not getting paid. I just feel like being done. I'm tired of beating myself up and feeling worn out because the scale keeps telling me I'm never going to reach my goal. I'm never going to be a weight loss success. I'm never going to win this battle.


Monday, September 28, 2009


Something oh so petty has been rattling my brain for days now. Why am I so afraid to go try on a pair of size 8 pants??? My size 10 clothing is super loose on me but I'm just afraid to go there. I feel like if I try them on and I don't fit them or don't like how they look on me, I will end up falling off with my progress:( I feel like a kid going to get a shot at the doctor's office. I just cringe at the thought of putting on those pants and realize that I'm not even close to a size 8. So either I purchase a belt or new clothes. I feel so stupid. When I told my hubby, he said to just try on a pair and get it over with. I'm sure how to get over this little hump of fear because once I decide to take that jump, there's no turning back......


Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

It feels like I haven't been blogging in a long time. Life is just super busy with three of my four kids in school. I *think* I'm finally adjusting to the new schedules, etc. I've also decided to change my weigh-in day to Wednesday from now on. Well this morning I weighed in at 150.8 lbs!!!! I'm very happy about that:) I'm back on track as far as taking care of me goes and I'm keeping a food diary which I believe is helping me tremendously. I recently started taking this Kettlebell class and I must say I love it!! Its hard as hell but imo, if I'm not in pain, its probably not doing its job. It was the most intense 45 minutes ever. A few of the students were whispering things like "she's(the instructor) insane, I'm not coming back to this class, no way". Well, since I paid for this class, I'm invested now and I think that since it works the core, I really need to stick with it. Of course after having four big babies, my core is most definitely my problem area. Anyway, I just wanted to say that I'm back and that I've missed you guys. I'm going to get caught up on my blog reading by the weekend. I hope everyone has a great hump day and an awesome weekend!!


Wednesday, September 9, 2009

So inspiring

I'm a big fan of this show as I'm sure most of you all are out in weight loss blog land. There's a woman who lost her family in a car accident. She is the one I will be cheering on the most. She deserves a new start in life. Enjoy!

Monday, September 7, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

This post is going to be relatively short since its a holiday and my little ones want some mommy & daddy time. Well I'm back on track!!FOUR pounds down from last week:) I'm freakin' ecstatic about that. I didn't really know what to think as I saw jaw definitely dropped and I squealed in delight once it set into my mind. I've been running around like crazy getting the kids back-to-school stuff ready. Last week was Malique's(my 7 year old son) info night and this week is my two preschoolers info night. Needless to say I've been sleeping pretty well the last few weeks because I'm constantly on the go. I've been doing the EA Active 30 Day Challenge and I must say it is most certainly a challenge. If you're thinking about getting it, its well worth the investment. Well I hope everyone is enjoying the remainder of the holiday weekend. Have a great week ya'll!!


Thursday, September 3, 2009

Still around

I just wanted to post a quickly apology for not updating and checking in. Well, I kind of needed a break. I have three kids getting ready to start school and I pretty much fell off the wagon. I'm human and it happens. I really don't feel bad about it, so I'm not going to sit here and have a pity party. It would be pointless. What's done is done, now its time to move forward. I'm not certain as to when I will weigh in next. Frankly, I'm thinking 2 weeks from now might be a good idea. So that I can get rid of the damage I did over the last couple of weeks lol. Well this is the last week before school starts, so I'm trying to get in as much fun stuff as I possibly can before then. Today I'm thinking a bike ride and then another workout during nap time for mommy. I can't believe that today my baby girl is 11 months old:( I kind of got depressed when hubby informed me that WE are done having children. I have been down right bitchy and I'm not certain how to move on. I know its not fair to him but what about me? Every time I try to "move on" I get 2x more bitchy. Being a woman truly sucks sometimes. Well I'm hoping that by jumping back into my fitness routine, I'll get over the bright idea of having another baby because hubby isn't going for it:( Well I need to get the kids breakfast and continue on with my day. Enjoy your holiday weekend everyone!!


Tuesday, August 25, 2009


That number has been on my mind ever since I weighed in yesterday using my Wii Fit Board. Apparently, this is the weight I should be at for my height which is 5'2. My goal is 136. I would have a healthy BMI of 24.9 I believe. Why isn't that good enough?? I don't know if I have it in me to get down to 119. I mean seriously, after I gave birth to my fourth child in Oct. '08 I weighed 206. Now I'm at 150. IF I chose to reset my goal to 119, that would be 87 lbs. lost. I'm not trying to say I'm a super model but where are these additional pounds going to be coming from?? My hubby is already complaining about my tush "saying goodbye":(. I honestly don't know what to think about that number. Why is it bothering me so much? Why am I questioning my personal goal because of what some piece of technology said?? UGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Monday, August 24, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

Okay, I'm like pissed and happy all at the same time. I got on the scale twice just to be sure. I'm 150.1, 2.4lbs down from last week!!! For some reason, I desperately want out of the 150s but apparently the scale says this is not the week for that lol. I'm so happy though that I'm doing this. I'm actually on the verge of completing a lifestyle change. I'm actually going to be healthy and not wake up everyday feeling like I need to just stay in bed and hide. I've never had so much self-confidence in years. I've always had it in me to lose the weight but I just was stuck in "I don't feel like doing this" mode since I met my husband and started gaining that "happy love weight". My mom insists that I've lost enough weight but I'm just not satisfied until I'm at a healthy BMI. Some people tell me that the numbers don't matter. Well it does when your Dr. tells you that your unhealthy and being that I have a family history of diabetes, I seriously needed to do something about my weight. I've got a feeling that these last 14lbs. will give me a run for my money so I better continue on with my food diary and exercise log(that reminds me I should start posting that here for accountability). Thank you so much to those of you who continue to support me on this journey. I know that I wouldn't have gotten to this point without you. Well, motherhood calls!! Have a great week everyone:)


Monday, August 17, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

I want to start off by apologizing for those of you who may have been wondering if I fell off the face of the earth. My parents left today after visiting for 2 weeks. I didn't really have much time for the internet world since I hadn't seen them in over 3 years. It was an awesome visit and they did so many great things for their grand kids. We are already discussing plans for Christmas, YIPPEE!!! I pray that the visit would go well and God answered my prayers:)I was so spoiled while they were here that its gonna be a very long week getting back to "normal".:(

Anywho, I still worked out and kept up with my fitness routine despite caving in to some of my mom's down south cooking. Cabbage, red beans and rice, Rice Krispy treats, etc. The woman has still got it!! I posted my weigh-ins on the left and I'm very happy that I'm weighing less than what I was before my parents arrived.

152.6!! WOOT! WOOT! I'm so close to the 140s I can taste it. Its gonna be on this week. I absolutely REFUSE to be in the 150s next week. I plan to work out twice a day for the next week or so because that's just what I think it may take to lose 2.7 lbs this week. But I will definitely do it the safe way. My mom suggest a "soup diet". As much as I love soup, I don't think I can do that for an entire week!!

Well, I must go now since I have laundry to put away and four little rugrats to get fed. Have a great week everyone!!!


Monday, July 27, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

Well its my time of the month, so I wasn't expecting a big weight loss but is still a little disappointing. I only lost .4 this week. I know I may be a bit hard on myself, but I really work out intensely and to see only 153.0 is a bit shocking. I feel like I've been in the 150s forever. I just feel totally frustrated. Feel like going order a pizza and just eat it alone. But that won't do me one bit of good. I bet I would be feeling like crap if I were to do that so instead I'll just work extra hard this week hoping the scale is a bit more kind to me. I really need to work on my core this week. I'm sure you ladies know that after having children things get really lose in that area. Since I'm only 5'2, I have to work really hard at toning. It seems that the more I lose the more I think I might have to get a tummy tuck. Its weird to even consider that. I've NEVER had any type of surgery whatsoever so I'm not certain that's the route I want to take but its a thought just the same. I've had four kids. Two were over 8 lbs., one was over 10lbs. and one was over 7lbs. So I have a ton of toning to do in that area. I have 17 lbs. to go so I suppose I may reconsider going that route once I hit my goal weight. Well I have to go figure out what to do with the kids today. Have a good week everyone!


Monday, July 20, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

Well last week was an extremely long and stressful week. If you have in-laws, you know how much of a burden they can be when they come to visit for an entire week. All I can say is that I'm soooooooooo glad my fil has gone back home to Louisiana!! For the most part, his visiting was nice but on the other hand, there were many moments where he could have been murdered lol. Anyway, I'm definitely glad to be back to normal!!

Stepped on the scale bright and early before my 6 am workout and I was VERY thrilled to see 153.4!!!!!!! I didn't sleep very well at all last week and I only managed to get in THREE freakin' workouts(boy was I pissed about that). But it seems that I gave it my all during those workouts and I got unexpected results on the scale. I think keeping up with my water intake and eating the right foods obviously helped:) It would be soooooooo awesome to be in the 140s next week but I don't know if I can pull off another 3lbs. weight loss unless I REALLY kick it up a notch this week. It would be great if I had a punching bag in my "gym" area of the basement. There is something about punching, jabbing, and kicking that brings out the most intensity in me. I am going to have to do some shopping around for one of those stand alone types of punching bags. It would be a great addition to my equipment. Well, motherhood calls as I need to get some fuel in my system before the little ones wake up (can't believe its 8 am and they're still sleeping!!!!!). Have a great week ya'll!!!


Monday, July 13, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

I'm happy to report that I'm now 155 lbs.!!!! 19 lbs. to go before reaching my goal. I feel absolutely fantastic. I never thought I would be able to accomplish this with four young children, but I'm making it happen. I'm now in a comfortable size 10(I seriously need to take some updated pics.) The only downfall to my weight loss journey is that I'm getting extremely unorganized and its driving me insane!! I have almost a garbage bag full of important documents to shred and sort threw. It makes me sick just thinking about it:( Anyway, it really makes no sense to cry over something that won't get done unless I do it. Hubby "cleans" in his own little way. We know how men are lol. I'm starting to really get into cardio kickboxing, so if you have many recommendations for exercise DVDs to check out, I would love to hear from you:)I'm current doing Jillian Michael's The Biggest Winner-Cardio Kickboxing and I just love it!! Its a very intense 30 min. I sweat buckets every time I do this workout. Well, I guess I'll cut this short since I have some major cleaning to do before my fil arrives tomorrow. Have a great week everybody!!


Thursday, July 9, 2009

Quick Note

Sorry I haven't updated in over a week but with the holiday weekend and preparing for my father-in-law visiting this upcoming week(from Louisiana), I've been running around like a mad woman getting things in order around here. I will definitely update on Monday after I've had a second to breathe!!


Monday, June 29, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

Sorry this is so late but I desperately needed to clean my house today. It was getting out of hand and driving me insane!!!I almost broke my neck on a toy last night! Anywho, I lost 1.1 lbs., bringing me to 156.3. I wasn't expecting that much since AF is here(for you guys, that's aunt flow, aka my period). I retain water like the Hoover Dam during my time of the month. Oh well, no sense crying over it. A loss is a loss!I also didn't drink nearly as much water as I normally would. For some reason, I just couldn't get around to drinking it all last week. Today, I finished with 120 oz. I'm trying to increase that but I have no clue how I would even be able to go on with my day with the repeated trips to the bathroom. I need to change up my workout routine. I got obsessed with the elliptical machine for the last few weeks and I think I might do nothing but exercise dvds for the remainder of the week to get some newness into the mix. I would use my treadmill, but the last time I used it, it started making this extremely loud noise when I would run 4mph or more. I have no idea how to go about getting it serviced:( Probably will cost me more to get it fixed than what it costs. Oh well, I need to figure out what to eat for a healthy snack then I'm going to some reading. Have a great week ya'll!!


Saturday, June 27, 2009

Halfway there

I normally only blog once a week, but I wanted to reflect a little on how far I've traveled on this journey and how much further I need to go. When I started this blog, I weighed in at 179.2 and I'm now 157.4. I feel awesome!!I have so much more energy nowadays. Its great to get so many things accomplished without feeling like a slug. For NSV, I'm now in a very comfortable size 10!!!!I haven't been that size since my 2nd child was born. I caught a sale at the Fashion Bug and stocked up on capris and I just knew there was no way I could fit into a size 10. Boy was I ever wrong!!It feels good to know that everything I'm doing for my body is working. I really hope that I'm inspiring someone out there. Even though I'm a mom of four children, I'm still thriving on this journey. I'm just in that "NOTHING can stop me" mode. I've been wondering if I should aim for 130 for my goal weight instead of the initial 136lb. goal that I set. I guess I'll access that thought once I see that number on the scale. As always I hope you all are having a great weekend!


Monday, June 22, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

OMG!!!!I'm in the 150s!!!I can't believe it!!!3.1 lbs. down this week:D I have the biggest smile on my face today. NO case of the Mondays for me lol. My hubby was ecstatic for me as well. His support means a great deal to me. I don't think I could be on this journey without him in my corner. I did my bra shopping online since I completed one of my goals, which was to get down to 159. I actually surpassed that goal!!I feel like I could take on the world today. Accomplishment is a great energy booster. I joined this neat this blog giveaway today for a few prizes. Its a fun little way to keep on track with my weight loss goal. Learning from past eating mistakes and temptations. I hope that everyone has a terrific week out in the weight loss world. I might be back later but first I have to feed my rugrats.


Monday, June 15, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

I'm so very close to my mini-goal of being in the 150s. I haven't been there since becoming pregnant with my 3rd child. I'm very pleased with how well I have been staying on track. I decided to take the day off from working out since I didn't get to bed until 1 am this morning. I don't think I would have been very productive even if I tried. Lately, I've fallen into the "frozen food diet" and I feel like I need to began cooking low calorie meals. I made Grilled Shrimp salad w/light ranch dressing which came to 437 calories. It was soooooooo good and filling!!!

I do think I've been lacking a little fiber so I've started taking Fibersure again. I've never been "regular" and I must tell you its no fun. I've also been trying to up my water intake. I can't seem to get in more than 100 oz a day. I wonder if that's enough though.

I've been really good so far with getting the kids out of the house daily(weather permitting). It makes me feel good seeing them enjoy being outside and its also a good way to have a great nap time lol. I'm not sure what we're going to be doing tomorrow though. I think its going to be the first day in which I don't have anything planned for them.

I think I'm gonna relax now and get under my blanket since my loving husband insists on having the a/c on. Brrrrrrrr its 60F in the house!!!


Monday, June 8, 2009

Go Me!!!

This week I stepped it up a ton!! I lost FOUR pounds!!!!!!I'm on cloud nine regardless of the fact that its been raining for three days. Here's what I did for workouts this week:

6/1/09 Monday

Miles: 4.84
Calories burned: 751
Time: 60:32 min.

6/2 Tuesday
5.08 miles, 60.21 min., 787 calories burned

10 tricep extensions
30 bicep curls (both using 10lb weights)
20 chest press (using resistance bands)
10 min stretch

6/3 Wednesday
Running: Treadmill
Event Type: Uncategorized
Time: 01:17:47
Distance: 8.38 mi
Elevation Gain: --
Calories: 1,012 C

Copied from Garmin: Device Forerunner 50

6/4 Thursday-Rest

6/5 Friday
45 min.
4.08 miles
633 calories

6/6 Saturday
5.19 miles, 804 calories, 60:25 min.
100 crunches
20 bicep curls

6/7 rest

I'm super proud of myself:) I really focused on myself and did really well with my calories. I stayed within 1200-1300 calories everyday. I found new foods to try so that I wouldn't get bored. I didn't think it would be easy to get full off of such a low calorie amount, but its totally possible.

I can't wait until this horrible weather clears. The kids are driving me insane! They insist on waking up before 7am. This is not cool for a mom who's never ever going to be a morning person. BLAH!! Oh well, nothing lasts forever right? I suppose I should feed the kids since they've been up for about an hour. Have a great week everyone!!


Thursday, May 21, 2009


Today started off sort of blah but once I realized that it was such a petty thing to get upset over, the day ended up being totally awesome!!We went out for dinner and people were amazed at how well all FOUR of our children behaved. I get this reaction a lot actually. My kids are 6, 3, 2, and 7 1/2months old. Sometimes we wonder how we are blessed to have such amazing human beings. I can go anywhere with them and I honestly don't cringe or hope they don't do something to totally embarrass us:)Its truly a great feeling:)

I decided to see how long it would take me to do 10,000 steps on my treadmill yesterday. I finished at 1 hour 10 min. I ran most of it and burned a just under 600 calories!!I was very sore when I woke up this morning lol. I like challenging myself and I felt totally awesome that I got through it without one complaint.

My 30th birthday is next Friday!!!I'm actually happy about turning 30. I still remember when my mom turned 30 and was outside on our back steps crying like a baby. I still don't get what the big deal is about. I feel awesome!!Its just a freakin' number imo. I'm going to have a girl's night out on my birthday and I can't wait!!I refuse to let life pass me by. I'm loving life by living it.

Tomorrow I have a park play date with a friend in the neighborhood. The kids really enjoying spending time with them. I make sure to get them out as much as possible. Kids have tons of energy that needs to be burned daily. I need to renew our Zoo membership now that I'm thinking about it. We also have a membership to the Aquarium, so I'm sure to keep my bunch busy this summer.

Well, I think I'm gonna settle down for the night. Have a great one!


Saturday, May 16, 2009


Last night was great!!Got to hang out with a bunch of moms and NO kids!!!I so needed some "me" time. The pic is me before leaving. It's my new favorite:)I've had a great day so far. Clarence took the kids outside and to the park, so I had quite a bit of time alone. It was too quiet in here!

I weighed in this morning at 165.3. Three more ounces would have been great lol, but I'll take it. I don't know what it is, but suddenly I have a desire to run when I'm on the treadmill. I ran a whole 3 miles yesterday without stopping and I actually enjoyed it. I NEVER thought in a million years that I would ever get to that point in my exercise routine.

Well I'm going to continue to enjoy my care free weekend. Have a good one!


Saturday, May 9, 2009

Okay I guess

Loss .9 pounds, bringing me to 166 even. I was kind of disappointed with that number today. I assumed I was going to be about 164:( Clarence(husband)thinks I expect too much of myself and may be he's right. Well a loss is a loss and at least I'm headed in the right direction, even though its a little slow than I would like.

Its Mother's Day weekend and I informed Clarence weeks ago and many times after that I would like to celebrate today and not on Sunday because everywhere you go on Mother's Day, its crowded. I would like to be surprised for once instead of having to plan my own day. Here we sit in our pajamas. He also said the yard would get cut today. Is 11:21 am and we're suppose to get more rain again. He's currently playing a game on the XBox 360. If I have to go out and cut the grass myself after taking care of four children everyday, its gonna be hell on earth in this house. Clarence is not an outdoors person at all. I think if he had his way, he would only be outside to get in and out of the van to commute to and from work. I'm going to end this now because I'm getting pretty pissed when I'm trying to give him a chance to rectify the day.


Saturday, May 2, 2009

Holding Steady:)

I'm still at 166.9 and I'm super happy about that. You may be wondering why I'm not upset? Well, I had some great food that I really shouldn't have eaten but it was my anniversary and girl's got to get wined and dined a little. I did awesome on exercising and burned over 800 calories on some days. I'm not going to cry about how I didn't lose anything because I did awesome at maintaining. I can't believe I'm EXACTLY what I was last week. Its kind of awesome. To me, it means that my metabolism is doing its job:)Next week I hope to be down to 163 or 164. I must admit the Chinese food was soooooo awesome:)The key is definitely moderation and LOTS of H20!!

I've been thinking about purchasing a kitchen scale to monitor my calories more efficiently but I haven't come across one that I'm willing to spend the money on. My main goal is to stay within my calorie range of 1400 calories a day. As I get closer to my goal, I may drop it down to 1200. Well no sense in talking about it now, although I'm very sure I will get there in no time flat:)

As for non-scale victories(NSV), I'm officially in a size 11!!!!NO laying on the bed to zip my skirt, NO inhaling to get it over my stomach!!!I'm too happy about that:)(Pics coming soon).

I think we're just going to hang around the house this weekend. I think everyone is due for some downtime. Next weekend we're going to take the kids to MN Zoo. Hope everyone is having a great weekend so far:)


Thursday, April 30, 2009


I don't know what came over me yesterday but I looked so forward to working out. So much in fact, that I actually exercised twice. It was awesome!!!But I'm paying for it this morning. I'm so sore:( But its a good sore:) I'm hoping today will go similar but with four kids,everyday can be totally different from the other.

Today is my wedding anniversary. I love Clarence so very much:)He's changed my life from the moment I saw him. I just knew the second I looked at him that he was going to be my husband. I know many people say that but I honestly thought that and I was so right:)Here's a picture of us on our wedding day

We won't be celebrating until tomorrow since its a work day for him. We snuggled in bed most of the morning. I didn't want to let him go but he has a deadline to meet at work so back to reality. If I had my way, we would go away to somewhere exotic for a few days. I know it will happen in time though. Its just hard sometimes not having any family nearby. But whats most important is the fact that we have a great marriage and respect each other.

Well the kids are getting rowdy, so I'm going to get them some breakfast and send Malique off to school. Have a good day everyone!


Saturday, April 25, 2009

166.9 lbs. =)

I'm really happy that I now weigh 166.9!!For some strange reason, I was actually EAGER to workout each day this week. I didn't workout on Tuesday because I was just exhausted from mommy stuff and actually took a nap!!So I exercised 4 out of 7. Not too bad, but I prefer to get in at least 5 days a week. I feel as if I'm started to get bored with what I currently eat daily, so I will definitely be looking for some new ideas and recipes for the upcoming week.

Today we took the kids to a Easter party hosted by my mommy group(Prior Lake Moms)
Here's a few pics of my gang:
Saiya Norah
Malique (right)
Daddy(Clarence) helping Ayannia
I think tomorrow is going to be a PJ day. I have been on the road a bit much this week with the kids, so I think we're due for some down time.

I've decided that sometime this week I will try the "Deck of Cards" workout Jillian Michaels suggested as a training tip on Biggest Loser last week. I think its an awesome way to keep me excited about exercising. Those first 10 minutes I have to literally keep saying "you can do this, you want this" until my body wakes up and gets with the program.

Well, I'm off to start my lazy 24 hours in PJs. I hope everyone is having a great weekend!


Monday, April 20, 2009

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

Well my period started and I didn't lose any weight this week. I'm still holding steady at 168.2. I don't know if the Wii Fit aided in maintaining or if it helped me lose. I retain a lot of water when its that TOM. So I probably won't really see my actual weight loss until the next weigh in. I'm going to go back to traditional workouts. I just feel that I will see more results that way. I'm posting two pics of myself(can't believe I'm doing this) the first one at 168 an the 2nd at 191.

I've been thinking about what I'm going to do today in regards to exercise and I haven't settled on any yet. I usually have something in mind by the time I get the kids up but not today.

The weather calls for rain all day:(The sun won't be making an appearance today. That's okay with me since I only planned to do laundry today anyway. Time for me to refill my water bottle. Have a great week everyone!


Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Long Week; Wii Fit

Sorry I'm so late in posting this but with a big family to look after, my time is not always my own. So the last week has been absolute hell. Everyone has had this nasty bug. I can't begin to tell you how many loads of laundry I've done or how many times we've had to bathe the kids in one day because they ended up puking on themselves among other things. It was one of the moments that made me feel like it was never going to end no matter what. I'm so glad its over. Now its time to get all these germs out of the house an clean up the yard. Still haven't figured out how I'm going to do that with two kids at school and two and home, all at different times of the day.....BLAH!!

I've decided that since I use my Wii Fit on a regular basis that I will give it a go to see if it aids in weight loss. I started yesterday and slept GREAT last night. I did the Super Hula Hoop three times, the free step for 20 minutes, some yoga poses(love the Sun Salutation),and some other exercises I can't think of at the moment. I've been looking online through sources such as you tube and notice that many people have tried this with great success. I did 1 hour and 16 minutes yesterday and I'm very sore this morning. I think it was the hula hoop exercises.

I'm hoping that I can get the kids outside today for some backyard play. Its suppose to reach the mid 60s today!! I didn't think that Minnesota could get temps like this lol. This has been THE longest winter ever. Well I'm off to do some housework before Kaine has to go to preschool.


Friday, April 10, 2009

Exhausted, Frustrated, Tired

So my 6 year old son Malique is not feeling well. Went upstairs this morning to wake him for breakfast but smelled something unreal in the boys' room. Apparently, he vomited last night, didn't bother to tell anyone and also did #2. I actually cried at the sight of my son not only sleeping in that filth but not bothering to tell anyone. I have spent the entire day cleaning up after him along with taking care of his three siblings. I'm TIRED!! Guess what just happened a few minutes ago??? Malique screams and cries(vomited/pooped) yet didn't let anyone know. I'm so pissed and tired. Being a parent is the hardest job I've ever had. So I'm pretty sure our Easter Holiday weekend is shot to hell. How do you go somewhere praying that your kid won't throw up all over himself???I have no clue what to do with the other three yet keep it low key. We were going to surprise them by taking them to the MN Zoo to see the Farm Babies and take pictures with Peter Rabbit:(Man I don't know how the hell I got through this damn day. I hope this stress doesn't affect my weigh-in tomorrow. I really need to get out of this house but I don't think it would be fair to leave Clarence home with the kids and he's still not 100% from his illness that started last week. Going to relax (if that's possible)and watch some TV with hubby.


Sunday, April 5, 2009

Weigh-In(Day Late)

Yesterday we took the kids to the local book fair and then to the Mall of America for lunch then down to the Underwater Adventures Aquarium. It was a LONG day but we had a great time! The kids all passed out on the ride home:)It was an awesome day. I can't believe we woke up to snow this morning. WTF??Its freakin' April...ughhhhhhhh!!Being from Louisiana, this is culture shock for me. I mean they are wearing shorts in my native state right now. Mother Nature is losing her damn mind.

With all of yesterday's events, I didn't get to weigh-in. This morning I weighed in at 168.4!!That works for me:)I was secretly hoping for a little more of a loss but that sure beats gaining weight and beating myself up. Getting to watch the Wild play the Detroit Red Wings in a few minutes. We have GOT to win this on or our chances at the playoffs are pretty much shot to hell.

Saturday, March 28, 2009


Out of the 170s for good!!! Weighed in today at 169.8. Although I barely made it out of the 170s, I'm damn proud to be moving in the right direction. Yesterday was just too hectic to squeeze in a few minutes to weigh-in, so Saturday will be the new day for that. I work out Monday through Friday so that will be okay. I had some pretty high-intensity workouts this past week. I'm really proud that I'm managing to get that hour to myself to get back into shape every evening. Clarence watches the kids so that I can really focus on me. I really love him for that. It doesn't take much to make me happy.:)Besides I'm NOT a morning person. I felt like I was just getting it over with instead of getting the maximum benefit from working out.


Thursday, March 26, 2009

Update on everything

I've decided to make this blog not only about weight loss but also about my life in general.

Last week I was sick as a dog and so was my 6 yr old son Malique. Thats why I didn't do a weigh-in post. When I finally got my energy back to get into the swing of things again, guess what? My husband Clarence got sick. He's been home the last two days:( I feel like its gonna take forever before things get back to some sort of normalcy. Last Friday, I weighed in at 172.0 and I'm not happy about it one bit. I expect an even bigger gain at tomorrow's weigh-in since I've been home taking care of Clarence and not really sticking to watching my caloric intake. I feel like I'm going to be stuck in the 170s forever:( This morning he(Clarence) couldn't sleep anymore because of his illness, so we were awake at 5am watching Tenchi Muyo(anime). Now I'm feeling the affect of that. I barely made it to the kitchen to make a pot of coffee. I really don't have the energy to eat anything, so I'll probably just grab a banana and call it a day. The kids are on spring break this week. It rained Monday and Tuesday, yesterday it was pretty cool and today we're lucky to be in the 30s. Its pretty safe to say that we are going to be raising our children in Minnesota. I wish my mind would get use to it. We were both born and raised in New Orleans and have been here for almost 4 years and I'm still not use to it. I don't think complaining is going to change the weather, so I might as well suck it up and deal with it. Going to grab another cup of joe. Weigh-in tomorrow(pray for me).


Friday, March 13, 2009

Weigh-In Friday:) ; 30 Day Shred

Down 2 lbs. this week bringing my new weight to 171.1. I'm super happy with that!! I was hoping to be out of the 170s this week but its okay. I know for sure that I'll achieve that mini-goal next week. I started doing Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred on Wednesday and I'm hoping to go the whole 30 days to see if this will actually work. My legs are bothering me a little bit this morning but its nothing some good stretching won't cure. I have ran out of granola bars(my obsession) so I definitely need to get to the store today, tomorrow at the latest. I can't believe I'm actually finding the time to work out with four children and a husband to take care of lol. So when people tell me there isn't enough time to workout, its an excuse. If I can do it everyday with all the chaos that goes on around here on a daily basis, I KNOW it can be done. I'm going to try and workout while the little ones are playing today. If not, its gonna definitely happen during nap time. But I seriously could use a nap myself, so I'll mostly like make it happen before latter of the two.

I hope that everyone has a great weekend!!

*DEFINITELY out of the 170s next week;)


Friday, March 6, 2009

Weigh-In Friday

For those of you following along, I've decided to change the day that I weigh in. When I weighed in Monday I was at 178.1. This morning I'm at 173.1. My TOM was last week so I'm guessing all the water weight etc. hadn't left my body when I weighed in this past Monday. I've also been working out twice a day on Tuesday and Wednesday. So I've lost 5 lbs in one week:D This has definitely made my day and is an awesome start to the weekend!!! The things I did differently this week would have to be drinking no less than 80 oz of water per day, taking a fiber supplement, and increasing the endurance of my workouts. I've also purchased the Forerunner 50 made by Garmin. It tracks my heart rate, time, and calories burned(only during running and walking;with use of the foot pod). It really makes me want to work even harder to see great numbers on my fitness progress. I need to get some breakfast in my body, I'm thinking oatmeal today. Have a great weekend everyone!!


*Hoping to be out of the 170s next week*

Monday, February 23, 2009

I knew it:(

I stupidly decided to eat pizza Friday night for dinner then AGAIN for lunch the next day. I should know better then to think that it wouldn't reflect on the scale. I'm now 175.3:(I only got to exercise 3 days last week. It seems like finding one hour for myself has become way more challenging than it should be. Plus I'm not going to bed early enough to get up in the morning to exercise. So all those late nights on the couch with hubby watching all of our shows on the DVR are going to have to take a back seat for now. Then to add insult to injury, my period is going to show up any day now. I hope everyone has a better weigh-in and workout this week.


Monday, February 16, 2009


Weighed in this morning at 175.0 lbs. Thats 2.7 lbs. lost from last week!!! I did super good this week with workouts and eating right. The only thing I could have done better was drinking more water. Drinking water gets old REALLY fast so I've got to come up with a way to increase my water intake. I've been doing the Turbo Jam, so I'm sure that played a major part in my weight loss. I plan to alternate between that and the Jillian Michaels DVD my hubby got me for V-day.(he actually remembered that I wanted it!!lol). He's such a sweetheart. It helps to know that he's supporting me on this journey. Well I need to go feed the gang. They are all home today since its President's Day.......blah!!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Monday Madness

Getting to the point(I'm suppose to be getting my son ready for school): I think I could have done better this week. I exercised 4 out of 7 days but I wanted to do 6. I also feel that my eating habits COULD have been a little better as well. I think going to KFC while dieting is such a good idea. I lost 1.5 lbs this week, bringing me to 177.7. I'm okay with that number but not excited about it. So this week I know that if I want to lose a good amount of weight, I should step it up a notch or two. I'm hoping to workout at least 5 times this week and not going above 1800 calories per day. Have a great week everyone!


Monday, February 2, 2009

Started Over:)

I promised myself something and I actually did it. I got out of the bed(slowly)at 5:50 am, weighed in and went down to the basement and had a great workout. I stepped on to the Wii Fit scale and I'm 179.2 lbs. I am so positive on my outlook for the future and looking HOT this summer. I'm sick of seeing cute clothes on hangers that I can't fit into. I put away all of my maternity clothing so I won't be tempted to just throw it back on at some point. I plan to get all of that washed up and sold on ebay. With four kids, we are sooooooo at our limit. Its time to put my health first and watch my babies grow now:) I'm so sore right now that my legs feel as if I have weights on them and I'm walking in slow motion. I think one of the things I definitely need to work on is getting to bed a little earlier. I didn't get to sleep until midnight. So you can imagine how I was feeling this morning when the alarm clock was going off. Its all most 8am so I need to get some breakfast in my tummy and get the little one to the bus stop. I'll be weighing in weekly on Mondays. Have a great week everyone and workout hard;)

Friday, January 30, 2009

Where to Begin.................

The last few weeks have been a true test, physically and emotionally. It seemed as if someone was determined to keep bringing bad things into my life. I have apparently been suffering from depression, to be more specific, Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) or more commonly known as the "winter blues." Minnesota winters keep you indoors ALL THE TIME. I was born and raised in Louisiana, so this has been like a culture shock to me. I was told that the best way to beat this thing is to get on an exercise plan and to get more rest.

I was tortured with the idea of weaning my daughter from breastfeeding so that I could get on a serious workout/diet plan without affecting her. Well, things have a funny way of happening I suppose, because my milk supply has pretty much vanished. Am I sad about that? You bet, what loving mother wouldn't be? Am I going to beat myself up about it? Nope! She is doing great on formula now. She is a very content and happy baby girl(whom I love to pieces).

With all of that being said, I seriously need to quit putting my health on the back burner. I'm going to be 30 in a few months and I don't want to hit 60-70 years old having to take numerous amounts of medication all because of my excuses right now. So Monday morning I'm going to start kicking fat's ass out of my life for good!!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Being Sick and Being Selfish

I haven't been blogging because I had a breast infection called Mastitis which is common when breastfeeding. I had a temp of 104.3 and I was just to the point of wanting to die. Then I was put on antibiotics. Lets just say the last week was the week from hell! I didn't get to work out and eating was not at the top of my list.

Anyway, my milk supply got really low as a result and I'm seriously thinking about weaning my daughter and putting her on formula so that I can lose weight more efficiently. Is that selfish of me? Is it wrong to put my need to lose weight and be healthy ahead of my daughter's breastfeeding? I'm really not allowed to "diet" like I use to before breastfeeding. I'm so torn on this issue and hoping for some sort of input from my readers. My husband just said that he's happy as long as our daughter gets the nutrients she needs to thrive.

What do you think I should do??

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Calorie Intake for a Breastfeeding Mom

Okay, so here's the deal. I'm breastfeeding. With doing so, you really aren't allowed to "diet". After doing some research, I am to eat the following everyday:

Food Serving Sizes Daily Serving

Bread cereal, 1 slice or 1 ounce; 6-11
rice, pasta 1/2 cup

fruit 1 medium or 1/2 cup 2

vegetables 1/2 cup cooked or raw 3
1 cup raw leafy vegetables

milk,yogurt 1 cup 3
cheese 1 1/2 ounces cheese

meat, poultry 2 ounces
peanut butter 4 tablespoons 3
eggs 2 eggs

In my opinion, this is A LOT of food. I can't wrap my brain around the fact that eating all this food DAILY along with exercising will help me lose weight. But if my calorie intake gets too low, all the toxin goes into my breast milk and harm my daughter eventually.

To reach my goal weight of 136 lbs by my birthday in May(and thats pushing it a bit), I shouldn't consume more than 2400 calories per day. I don't know I'm suppose to that with the amount of food I'm suppose to eat....blah!!!This crap is too complicated:(

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

I am NOT a morning person

If you have had the pleasure of getting to know me, you know that I can't stand waking up early BUT when you have four kids, you really don't have an option to sleep in. I got up at 6am and headed downstairs and got in a good 45 minutes of exercise. I only did 20 min. on the elliptical machine, 100 crunches, and some triceps extensions as well. I still can't believe I did that lol. I'm hoping that I have the energy to go downstairs during nap time and get in another 20 min. on the elliptical machine before I crash on the couch. We seriously need to get the treadmill in the basement. My loving husband promised we would get it downstairs before Monday but ummmmmmmm isn't it TUESDAY now...blah!!


Monday, January 5, 2009

Being held accountable

I think part of the key for me successfully completing my weight loss goal is to become "responsible" for it. I stumbled across the perfect thing out in a blog world earlier this afternoon called Manda's Minus 31 Challenge. Its basically losing weight to win something, but to me, its a lot more than that. I've always thrived on competition and always seem to fail without it. So I feel like its a win-win situation regardless of the fact that someone may lose the 31 lbs before me, there is nothing wrong with some healthy competition.

I'm so sore right now that it hurts to sit up lol. I'm definitely going to be stretching before I go to bed. Today I did 4 miles on the elliptical machine, 60 reps on the health rider, and a lot of free weight exercises. I'm going to sleep like a log tonight.


Thursday, January 1, 2009

Its My Year

Its the first day of 2009 and boy am I ready to get the show on the road. I weighed in at 176.4 this morning. My goal is to get down to 130 by my 30th birthday which is May 29th. I think my goal is pretty darn achievable. But with 4 small children under the age of 7, as well as a household to maintain and a hubby, things can easily fall off track as some of you can attest. I plan to start exercising on Monday. I'm a planner so I have to write out my exercise routine so that I won't get bored with and throw in the towel before I actually get going with any sort of progress.

It kind of bites me in the butt being a great cook. I was born and raised in New Orleans which is known for its rich food and love of fattening ingredients so cooking low-fat is something that I am not use to one bit. Thats going to be a huge challenge for me.

If I can give birth to four children, I'm pretty sure I'll figure out this weight loss thing again:)