Weigh-in and Randomness

Hey guys, I'm back!!Took a little time away from blogging to focus on a few other things.  I'm now the Organizer of my local mommy group so that took some adjusting.  I thought it was going to be somewhat easy but instead its way more time consuming than it appeared to be.  As you know Halloween is fast approaching, so I've also been on the costume hunt for four children.  Talk about exhausting!!

I'm down to 147.5 this week (with hair rollers lol).  I'm very happy that I didn't give up as I desperately considered doing so a few weeks back. I was just pissed over a number even though my clothes were fitting me well and I was receiving compliments on my progress so far.  Its amazing how much numbers on a scale can affect your outlook on life.

 I've been search for a cardio-kickboxing class as my Kettlebell class ends this Sunday, but I haven't had any success in finding one:(Our community center has a ab cycling class at 5:45am on Mondays and Fridays.  I'm really eager to try this out but I'm so NOT a morning person.  I would have to wake up at 5am to be there on time.  Are you kidding me?? As a mom of four, sleep is a very precious thing to me.  I'm not sure what else is available but that time slot is just ridiculous.  I'm looking to try something new to keep me going but I have no clue how to obtain it.  Oh well, I'm sure something will peek my interest soon enough.

 I had Banana Nut Crunch for breakfast today.  I ♥ that cereal!!!! Today is my rest day so I'm going to take a nap later and curl up with a good book tonight after the kids are in bed.  Have an awesome hump day and enjoy the rest of the week!!!

Dee~

Weigh-In and Apology

I want to first start off with the apology. I'm so sorry for my ridiculous negativity on my last blog post. I've reread it a 100 times and I can't believe I actually wrote that. I mean I was just full of anger and hate for myself. I did not like the path I was headed down. Most of you(I assume) are following my blog for support and motivation and I obviously wasn't fit to give you those tools. For that I am truly sorry. I was headed to a really dark place that I didn't like the view of at all. I've worked too hard to just throw it all away I sincerely thank all of you for giving me the courage to keep trying and not give up.

Well after months of scale torture, its finally happened. I stepped on the scale of doom and it said 148.4;2.2 lbs down:;30 lbs gone since starting this blog(Lost 27lbs after the birth of my fourth child)So since October 3, 2008, I've lost 58 lbs!!!!!I broke the curse!! I focused like never before and succeeded. My mini-goal was to get to 149 and I'm there!!!If my children were awake, I think I would screamed but instead I just jumped and celebrated in silence:D Well today starts the kid's fall break, so I'm off to make breakfast and see what the day has in store.  Happy hump day and enjoy the rest of the week!!!

Dee~

Defeated and Done

Well I decided to take a step back from the scale. So for 14 days, I diligently exercised and kept a food diary. You want to know what the scale said this morning?? 150.6. That's right, its not a typo. 150.6. I'm still in the 150s. I've been in this number group since June. I must tell you that I'm to the breaking point. I'm literally busting my ass and this is what I get. Before stepping on the scale today, I had nothing but positive thoughts. My clothes are fitting better, I'm seeing more tone and definition in some areas, yet the scale knocked my clean off my high-horse. I feel stupid for admitting this but as I blog, I'm in tears. I only lost .2 pounds in TWO damn weeks. I could have sat my ass on the couch and did that. I'm to the point where I just want to raid the fridge and eat every bad thing I can get my hands on:(What is the point of being so dedicated to this journey but not seeing the results of my hard work? Why do I take my free time to exercise when I'm basically getting slapped in the face repeatedly?Unless you're on a similar journey, you will never understand my heartache. My husband didn't really know what to say to me this morning. He looked just as pathetic as I did. People tell me often that I motivate them, I'm doing a good job and one person even asked me to help them lose weight. How in the hell am I suppose to be a good motivator when I can't even get the ball moving again on my end?? I'm at the fork in the road and the options are this: on the left I see the healthy path of eating right and exercising; on the right I see the path of going back to that unhappy place and eating whatever the hell I want. I'm telling you right now that the right side is looking mighty good to me right now. Metaphorically speaking, this honestly feels like going to work overtime for months only to find out your not getting paid. I just feel like being done. I'm tired of beating myself up and feeling worn out because the scale keeps telling me I'm never going to reach my goal. I'm never going to be a weight loss success. I'm never going to win this battle.

Dee~

Why?

Something oh so petty has been rattling my brain for days now. Why am I so afraid to go try on a pair of size 8 pants??? My size 10 clothing is super loose on me but I'm just afraid to go there. I feel like if I try them on and I don't fit them or don't like how they look on me, I will end up falling off with my progress:( I feel like a kid going to get a shot at the doctor's office. I just cringe at the thought of putting on those pants and realize that I'm not even close to a size 8. So either I purchase a belt or new clothes. I feel so stupid. When I told my hubby, he said to just try on a pair and get it over with. I'm sure how to get over this little hump of fear because once I decide to take that jump, there's no turning back......

Dee~

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

It feels like I haven't been blogging in a long time. Life is just super busy with three of my four kids in school. I *think* I'm finally adjusting to the new schedules, etc. I've also decided to change my weigh-in day to Wednesday from now on. Well this morning I weighed in at 150.8 lbs!!!! I'm very happy about that:) I'm back on track as far as taking care of me goes and I'm keeping a food diary which I believe is helping me tremendously. I recently started taking this Kettlebell class and I must say I love it!! Its hard as hell but imo, if I'm not in pain, its probably not doing its job. It was the most intense 45 minutes ever. A few of the students were whispering things like "she's(the instructor) insane, I'm not coming back to this class, no way". Well, since I paid for this class, I'm invested now and I think that since it works the core, I really need to stick with it. Of course after having four big babies, my core is most definitely my problem area. Anyway, I just wanted to say that I'm back and that I've missed you guys. I'm going to get caught up on my blog reading by the weekend. I hope everyone has a great hump day and an awesome weekend!!

Dee~

So inspiring

I'm a big fan of this show as I'm sure most of you all are out in weight loss blog land. There's a woman who lost her family in a car accident. She is the one I will be cheering on the most. She deserves a new start in life. Enjoy!

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Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

This post is going to be relatively short since its a holiday and my little ones want some mommy & daddy time. Well I'm back on track!!FOUR pounds down from last week:) I'm freakin' ecstatic about that. I didn't really know what to think as I saw 151.4...my jaw definitely dropped and I squealed in delight once it set into my mind. I've been running around like crazy getting the kids back-to-school stuff ready. Last week was Malique's(my 7 year old son) info night and this week is my two preschoolers info night. Needless to say I've been sleeping pretty well the last few weeks because I'm constantly on the go. I've been doing the EA Active 30 Day Challenge and I must say it is most certainly a challenge. If you're thinking about getting it, its well worth the investment. Well I hope everyone is enjoying the remainder of the holiday weekend. Have a great week ya'll!!

Dee~

Still around

I just wanted to post a quickly apology for not updating and checking in. Well, I kind of needed a break. I have three kids getting ready to start school and I pretty much fell off the wagon. I'm human and it happens. I really don't feel bad about it, so I'm not going to sit here and have a pity party. It would be pointless. What's done is done, now its time to move forward. I'm not certain as to when I will weigh in next. Frankly, I'm thinking 2 weeks from now might be a good idea. So that I can get rid of the damage I did over the last couple of weeks lol. Well this is the last week before school starts, so I'm trying to get in as much fun stuff as I possibly can before then. Today I'm thinking a bike ride and then another workout during nap time for mommy. I can't believe that today my baby girl is 11 months old:( I kind of got depressed when hubby informed me that WE are done having children. I have been down right bitchy and I'm not certain how to move on. I know its not fair to him but what about me? Every time I try to "move on" I get 2x more bitchy. Being a woman truly sucks sometimes. Well I'm hoping that by jumping back into my fitness routine, I'll get over the bright idea of having another baby because hubby isn't going for it:( Well I need to get the kids breakfast and continue on with my day. Enjoy your holiday weekend everyone!!

Dee~

119.5

That number has been on my mind ever since I weighed in yesterday using my Wii Fit Board. Apparently, this is the weight I should be at for my height which is 5'2. My goal is 136. I would have a healthy BMI of 24.9 I believe. Why isn't that good enough?? I don't know if I have it in me to get down to 119. I mean seriously, after I gave birth to my fourth child in Oct. '08 I weighed 206. Now I'm at 150. IF I chose to reset my goal to 119, that would be 87 lbs. lost. I'm not trying to say I'm a super model but where are these additional pounds going to be coming from?? My hubby is already complaining about my tush "saying goodbye":(. I honestly don't know what to think about that number. Why is it bothering me so much? Why am I questioning my personal goal because of what some piece of technology said?? UGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

Okay, I'm like pissed and happy all at the same time. I got on the scale twice just to be sure. I'm 150.1, 2.4lbs down from last week!!! For some reason, I desperately want out of the 150s but apparently the scale says this is not the week for that lol. I'm so happy though that I'm doing this. I'm actually on the verge of completing a lifestyle change. I'm actually going to be healthy and not wake up everyday feeling like I need to just stay in bed and hide. I've never had so much self-confidence in years. I've always had it in me to lose the weight but I just was stuck in "I don't feel like doing this" mode since I met my husband and started gaining that "happy love weight". My mom insists that I've lost enough weight but I'm just not satisfied until I'm at a healthy BMI. Some people tell me that the numbers don't matter. Well it does when your Dr. tells you that your unhealthy and being that I have a family history of diabetes, I seriously needed to do something about my weight. I've got a feeling that these last 14lbs. will give me a run for my money so I better continue on with my food diary and exercise log(that reminds me I should start posting that here for accountability). Thank you so much to those of you who continue to support me on this journey. I know that I wouldn't have gotten to this point without you. Well, motherhood calls!! Have a great week everyone:)

Dee~

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

I want to start off by apologizing for those of you who may have been wondering if I fell off the face of the earth. My parents left today after visiting for 2 weeks. I didn't really have much time for the internet world since I hadn't seen them in over 3 years. It was an awesome visit and they did so many great things for their grand kids. We are already discussing plans for Christmas, YIPPEE!!! I pray that the visit would go well and God answered my prayers:)I was so spoiled while they were here that its gonna be a very long week getting back to "normal".:(

Anywho, I still worked out and kept up with my fitness routine despite caving in to some of my mom's down south cooking. Cabbage, red beans and rice, Rice Krispy treats, etc. The woman has still got it!! I posted my weigh-ins on the left and I'm very happy that I'm weighing less than what I was before my parents arrived.

152.6!! WOOT! WOOT! I'm so close to the 140s I can taste it. Its gonna be on this week. I absolutely REFUSE to be in the 150s next week. I plan to work out twice a day for the next week or so because that's just what I think it may take to lose 2.7 lbs this week. But I will definitely do it the safe way. My mom suggest a "soup diet". As much as I love soup, I don't think I can do that for an entire week!!

Well, I must go now since I have laundry to put away and four little rugrats to get fed. Have a great week everyone!!!

Dee~

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

Well its my time of the month, so I wasn't expecting a big weight loss but is still a little disappointing. I only lost .4 this week. I know I may be a bit hard on myself, but I really work out intensely and to see only 153.0 is a bit shocking. I feel like I've been in the 150s forever. I just feel totally frustrated. Feel like going order a pizza and just eat it alone. But that won't do me one bit of good. I bet I would be feeling like crap if I were to do that so instead I'll just work extra hard this week hoping the scale is a bit more kind to me. I really need to work on my core this week. I'm sure you ladies know that after having children things get really lose in that area. Since I'm only 5'2, I have to work really hard at toning. It seems that the more I lose the more I think I might have to get a tummy tuck. Its weird to even consider that. I've NEVER had any type of surgery whatsoever so I'm not certain that's the route I want to take but its a thought just the same. I've had four kids. Two were over 8 lbs., one was over 10lbs. and one was over 7lbs. So I have a ton of toning to do in that area. I have 17 lbs. to go so I suppose I may reconsider going that route once I hit my goal weight. Well I have to go figure out what to do with the kids today. Have a good week everyone!

Dee~

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

Well last week was an extremely long and stressful week. If you have in-laws, you know how much of a burden they can be when they come to visit for an entire week. All I can say is that I'm soooooooooo glad my fil has gone back home to Louisiana!! For the most part, his visiting was nice but on the other hand, there were many moments where he could have been murdered lol. Anyway, I'm definitely glad to be back to normal!!

Stepped on the scale bright and early before my 6 am workout and I was VERY thrilled to see 153.4!!!!!!! I didn't sleep very well at all last week and I only managed to get in THREE freakin' workouts(boy was I pissed about that). But it seems that I gave it my all during those workouts and I got unexpected results on the scale. I think keeping up with my water intake and eating the right foods obviously helped:) It would be soooooooo awesome to be in the 140s next week but I don't know if I can pull off another 3lbs. weight loss unless I REALLY kick it up a notch this week. It would be great if I had a punching bag in my "gym" area of the basement. There is something about punching, jabbing, and kicking that brings out the most intensity in me. I am going to have to do some shopping around for one of those stand alone types of punching bags. It would be a great addition to my equipment. Well, motherhood calls as I need to get some fuel in my system before the little ones wake up (can't believe its 8 am and they're still sleeping!!!!!). Have a great week ya'll!!!

Dee~

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

I'm happy to report that I'm now 155 lbs.!!!! 19 lbs. to go before reaching my goal. I feel absolutely fantastic. I never thought I would be able to accomplish this with four young children, but I'm making it happen. I'm now in a comfortable size 10(I seriously need to take some updated pics.) The only downfall to my weight loss journey is that I'm getting extremely unorganized and its driving me insane!! I have almost a garbage bag full of important documents to shred and sort threw. It makes me sick just thinking about it:( Anyway, it really makes no sense to cry over something that won't get done unless I do it. Hubby "cleans" in his own little way. We know how men are lol. I'm starting to really get into cardio kickboxing, so if you have many recommendations for exercise DVDs to check out, I would love to hear from you:)I'm current doing Jillian Michael's The Biggest Winner-Cardio Kickboxing and I just love it!! Its a very intense 30 min. I sweat buckets every time I do this workout. Well, I guess I'll cut this short since I have some major cleaning to do before my fil arrives tomorrow. Have a great week everybody!!

Dee~

Quick Note

Sorry I haven't updated in over a week but with the holiday weekend and preparing for my father-in-law visiting this upcoming week(from Louisiana), I've been running around like a mad woman getting things in order around here. I will definitely update on Monday after I've had a second to breathe!!

Dee~

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

Sorry this is so late but I desperately needed to clean my house today. It was getting out of hand and driving me insane!!!I almost broke my neck on a toy last night! Anywho, I lost 1.1 lbs., bringing me to 156.3. I wasn't expecting that much since AF is here(for you guys, that's aunt flow, aka my period). I retain water like the Hoover Dam during my time of the month. Oh well, no sense crying over it. A loss is a loss!I also didn't drink nearly as much water as I normally would. For some reason, I just couldn't get around to drinking it all last week. Today, I finished with 120 oz. I'm trying to increase that but I have no clue how I would even be able to go on with my day with the repeated trips to the bathroom. I need to change up my workout routine. I got obsessed with the elliptical machine for the last few weeks and I think I might do nothing but exercise dvds for the remainder of the week to get some newness into the mix. I would use my treadmill, but the last time I used it, it started making this extremely loud noise when I would run 4mph or more. I have no idea how to go about getting it serviced:( Probably will cost me more to get it fixed than what it costs. Oh well, I need to figure out what to eat for a healthy snack then I'm going to some reading. Have a great week ya'll!!

Dee~

Halfway there

I normally only blog once a week, but I wanted to reflect a little on how far I've traveled on this journey and how much further I need to go. When I started this blog, I weighed in at 179.2 and I'm now 157.4. I feel awesome!!I have so much more energy nowadays. Its great to get so many things accomplished without feeling like a slug. For NSV, I'm now in a very comfortable size 10!!!!I haven't been that size since my 2nd child was born. I caught a sale at the Fashion Bug and stocked up on capris and I just knew there was no way I could fit into a size 10. Boy was I ever wrong!!It feels good to know that everything I'm doing for my body is working. I really hope that I'm inspiring someone out there. Even though I'm a mom of four children, I'm still thriving on this journey. I'm just in that "NOTHING can stop me" mode. I've been wondering if I should aim for 130 for my goal weight instead of the initial 136lb. goal that I set. I guess I'll access that thought once I see that number on the scale. As always I hope you all are having a great weekend!

Dee~

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

OMG!!!!I'm in the 150s!!!I can't believe it!!!3.1 lbs. down this week:D I have the biggest smile on my face today. NO case of the Mondays for me lol. My hubby was ecstatic for me as well. His support means a great deal to me. I don't think I could be on this journey without him in my corner. I did my bra shopping online since I completed one of my goals, which was to get down to 159. I actually surpassed that goal!!I feel like I could take on the world today. Accomplishment is a great energy booster. I joined this neat this blog giveaway today for a few prizes. Its a fun little way to keep on track with my weight loss goal. Learning from past eating mistakes and temptations. I hope that everyone has a terrific week out in the weight loss world. I might be back later but first I have to feed my rugrats.

Dee

Weigh-In, Etc. Etc.

160.5**
I'm so very close to my mini-goal of being in the 150s. I haven't been there since becoming pregnant with my 3rd child. I'm very pleased with how well I have been staying on track. I decided to take the day off from working out since I didn't get to bed until 1 am this morning. I don't think I would have been very productive even if I tried. Lately, I've fallen into the "frozen food diet" and I feel like I need to began cooking low calorie meals. I made Grilled Shrimp salad w/light ranch dressing which came to 437 calories. It was soooooooo good and filling!!!

I do think I've been lacking a little fiber so I've started taking Fibersure again. I've never been "regular" and I must tell you its no fun. I've also been trying to up my water intake. I can't seem to get in more than 100 oz a day. I wonder if that's enough though.

I've been really good so far with getting the kids out of the house daily(weather permitting). It makes me feel good seeing them enjoy being outside and its also a good way to have a great nap time lol. I'm not sure what we're going to be doing tomorrow though. I think its going to be the first day in which I don't have anything planned for them.

I think I'm gonna relax now and get under my blanket since my loving husband insists on having the a/c on. Brrrrrrrr its 60F in the house!!!

Dee

Go Me!!!

This week I stepped it up a ton!! I lost FOUR pounds!!!!!!I'm on cloud nine regardless of the fact that its been raining for three days. Here's what I did for workouts this week:

6/1/09 Monday

Elliptical
Miles: 4.84
Calories burned: 751
Time: 60:32 min.

6/2 Tuesday
Elliptical
5.08 miles, 60.21 min., 787 calories burned

10 tricep extensions
30 bicep curls (both using 10lb weights)
20 chest press (using resistance bands)
10 min stretch

6/3 Wednesday
Running: Treadmill
Event Type: Uncategorized
Time: 01:17:47
Distance: 8.38 mi
Elevation Gain: --
Calories: 1,012 C

Copied from Garmin: Device Forerunner 50

6/4 Thursday-Rest

6/5 Friday
Elliptical
45 min.
4.08 miles
633 calories

6/6 Saturday
Elliptical
5.19 miles, 804 calories, 60:25 min.
100 crunches
20 bicep curls

6/7 rest

I'm super proud of myself:) I really focused on myself and did really well with my calories. I stayed within 1200-1300 calories everyday. I found new foods to try so that I wouldn't get bored. I didn't think it would be easy to get full off of such a low calorie amount, but its totally possible.


I can't wait until this horrible weather clears. The kids are driving me insane! They insist on waking up before 7am. This is not cool for a mom who's never ever going to be a morning person. BLAH!! Oh well, nothing lasts forever right? I suppose I should feed the kids since they've been up for about an hour. Have a great week everyone!!

Dee