Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Sabotage

That's one word to describe what I'm doing to myself and this weight loss journey. For the last two days, I just haven't committed myself to my goals at all. Why with 12 lbs. left, I've decided to do this? Why am I not taking responsibility for my actions? Why haven't I worked out in two days? Why am I doing this???Ughhhhhhh:/ Its like I'm purposely throwing in the towel. What am I afraid of? Is it being "normal"? Is it not being able to hide under my XL winter coat that is too big for me now? I have so many questions about myself but I don't know where to find the answers that I'm looking for. I'm not certain if its the weather that's just throwing me off course(been raining and been stuck home with a sick child), but this isn't a good place to be in mentally. This just freakin' bites! I need to get a grip before this gets out of control........


Dee~

4 comments:

Daisy said...

You'll do this. If you couldn't, you wouldn't have made it this far. So, don't freak out. Just repeat what you were doing every day before this and you'll own this thing. I know you can do it!

We have a challenge to complete.!!

Anonymous said...

Dee-DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP! You are such an inspiration to me and I am sure many others! I know you will be able to bounce back and kick those 12 pounds to the curb!

Lacy

Michelle Hooper said...

What an amazing blog and AMAZING progress!!! Way to go girl!!!

You can do this. I have no doubt whatsoever. YOU ARE GONNA ROCK IT..keep at it!!!

www.hotgymdiva.blogspot.com

Dee said...

Thanks ladies!!I think I'm back on track. We'll see what the scale decides tomorrow!

Dee~